New Year Resolution

Every New Year, we make resolutions and at the end of the year we find ourselves not sticking to it even once.  Life suffers in the business of the mundane things and these greater thoughts of resolutions and dreams keep sliding by. We postpone things and make new plans. Like the great “lizard story”, we only remember it on the New Year day. Then we fall into regrets and more dreaming about wishful “what if” scenarios.  Ravan was about to build a staircase that would connect heaven and earth but he kept postponing, and he said tomorrow, I will start. But tomorrow never came. His death came. And he has to transfer this great wisdom to his enemy while breathing his last breaths.

My life’s ironic fact is that I have OCD over things getting done. I want things done, as soon as I come to know I gotta do something, I do things all ahead of time, calculated, well thought out and planned. But the results do not follow the work. I end up last most of the time. I plant the fruit and never get to reap the fruit. Universe is kind of ironic.

With New Year comes, new joy and optimism and hope and Resolutions. I, however think that even a false hope is better than pessimistic self-pity, and regrets in life.

I have no resolution. I just play a little part in a big universe. Most of the things are beyond my control. Although I look like a player, I am just a puppet. Moreover, I won’t do anything different that is against my morals and ethics and values etc. The things I needed to do are well done, I just hope that somehow luck strikes me by mistake, once in life. I can only reconsider the situations, reevaluate my ethics and values, and do my best. At the end of the year, I just clear my soul and transfer all the blame to God. If things happens- God is great, if not God really didn’t want it for me. I have no regrets.

01/01/2013

Irving, Texas